`Tuesday, February 06, 2007;__
TODAY IS OUR DEAREST MEI JIN'S
SWEET 6TEEN =) 6/2/07 hohohos
like finally she reach so called legal age!
u know why? cos she can go clubbing
at MOS! well MOS only hor. lols.
and she can play pool watch nc16
and the list goes on. once again
HAPPY SWEET 6TEEN =)
catch up soon ! veron said after 9feb
we go play pool!!! lols
MONDAY;
Last Saturday when my family & I
went to collect our pink IC.
the ceremony was grand! we have
to go on stage and shake hand with
Dr Teo Ho Pin. lols. *shivers*
but the whole event was damn LONG!
Tuesday;
So much works are given by teachers
right on my face that need to be
done. i can feel the stress already.
i learnt a lesson which is never ever
pile up all ur homeworks till the
very last minute! you will end up like
me rushing through all the homeworks
feeling so guilty not handing in on time.
therefore i have been good enough to
burn midnight oil till like 1 plus!
i finished 2 history essays!! mind u
4 pages long!!! OMG!! and 2 chinese
compo! (zuo wen & ying yong wen)
another 4 pages or is it 5 pages?
arghhh i can die!!!
And now with me still got this
BIG BIG burden whcih is FNN coursework!
i have yet to start on the reserch where
the date line is 9 feb THIS friday!!!
tell me how am i goin to finish???
Not forgetting plus daily homeworks!
I WANNA DIE!!!
I have a question in my head now!
oh well isnt our journal supposed to
be something very personal???
Ooops.. okay shall stop here.
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:48 PM;__
`Monday, February 05, 2007;__
Had a small argument with baby last
night due to my pms moodswing!
okay and it is expected to have mood-
swing everymonth without fail.
And i'm glad that my baby understand
that. he let me cool down and b4 i dozed
off to sleep he called and tried to cheer
me up but i was still in a v bad mood.
so i went to sleep inorder to avoid
further arguments.
And i did not go school today
the reason is very simple.
i thought i could make it but failed.
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:56 PM;__
`Saturday, February 18, 2006;__
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME!
Actually i dont wish to have this post .
But there are really too manys things happenin
recently. somehow for these past few days
i'm just not in the mood if u have realise.
i dont know what is goin on so wrong.
i cant help but to cry silently. maybe some of
you notice maybe not.
FAMILY!
I have this never ending family problems
goin on and on. i'm really fucked up abt it.
You guys may think that i've got lots of freedoms.
i can do anything i wan but hell NO!
My parents think i've changed so much!
i used to be a very sensible and obediant gal
but now i've become so wild just because i pierced
my nose? because i've few more ear holes than others?
just because my skirts are short? just because
i go out often? I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE
HELL THEY WANT FROM ME! i seriously dont
understand. they dont want me to have boyfriend
now, all they want from me is to be an obediant gal
who goes back home immediately after school. who stays
at home and do my homeworks , and make sure i stays
at home on the weekends and study! fuck it I CANT!
They dont know what i really want, they dont understand
me either, they have never try to understand me,
well whoever does? NOBODY!
THE OLDER I GET THE STRICTER THEY ARE TO ME. whats this?
cant i just have that little bit of freedom to do what i want
and not what you want me to do!?
RELATIONSHIP
A pain in my ass. really!
There are loves,care & concerns,
laughters, tears,heartbreaks,
those sweet moments and the bad
ones! Hais. people think that we are loving
but they ever see the other side of us?
i dont know .
all i know is NOW we gonna have lesser time
together till i sit for my O'lvls.
i hope you understand my situations and
don't give me too much pressure.
wait for me if you think i worth it.
dont blame me for not havin the time to
accompany you. dont blame me for not being
able to be there for u when u need me,
dont blame me for lonely nights u have .
cos all these I DONT WISH TO HAPPEN
EITHER! but do i have the chance? do
my parents give me the chance? think,
and put yourself in my position. baby i hope
you understand. if u can, wait for me to finish
my seconddary life!
FRIENDS
we all should know very well about it.
so i dont wish to say much .
please have sometimes goin out and have fun
together like what we used to have in e past.
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:48 PM;__
`Wednesday, February 15, 2006;__
Hurts-
14/2/06 [Valentine's day]
Happy valentines day to all!!
just another day in school.
and yes BORING*
oh how amazing that i have to stay
back after 2.30 in sch for Eng PST!
Damn it!
Meet rongxin at cck and we headed
to causeway to meet Ron! btw he is
a guy NOT VERON! lols! cos i dun call
VERONICA as RON!=/
and sadly we only managed to talk abit
cause he had to meet his fren.
okay so i walked arnd with rx den saw
my younger bro . later on my bro called
and i went back home with him!
AND i took a nap from 5.45 to 9!
can u imagine HUI JUAN SPENDING
HER VALENTINE'S DAY SLEEPING
AT HOME!?!?gawd!!! okay yes i did la! :'(
15/2/06
Life in school 1 word [SUCKS]! yes SUCKS!
i didnt get anything into my head.
i cant adsorb anything. my mind wasnt
in school. His words keep floatin in my mind.
and the more i think of it the sadder i get.
the more i think of it my heart hurts deeper.
the more i think of it the more...
tears flowing down once again...
therefore i'm takin a break now.
i hope in this 3 weeks time we both would
really learn to appreciate each other, understand
each other better.so till then takecare my
dear always remember wad we have promised
each other. takecare baby!.
Had Band today. marching again! =X
well got so pissed off with Daryll .
nvr use common sense b4 he say sth.
fuck sia. he asked me why did i fall out
of the formation without his permision?
bloody hell ofcos is i dont know how to
march and then victor knocked into me
so i have to fall out rite. and if i have to ask
for ur permisson b4 i fall out i'll be blockin
and knockin into many other ppl wad .
dumb sia dun noe how to use commosn sense.
faggot!
THATS MY DAY!
i'm hoping for better days ahead!
Hurts!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 10:20 PM;__
`Sunday, February 12, 2006;__
BEE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Have been a while since my last post.
i don't have much time well maybe i am just
too lazy. monday to friday in sch! [HELL]
Saturday and Sunday i gotta grab this
opportunity to be with HIM!
11/2/06 [saturday]BBQ
wake up quite early so took a bath and dressed to
gettin ready to meet him for breakfast.
well he went market to buy those BBQ things
with him mum first. i met them later at arnd 11
for breakfast at admiralty place.
went back to his house to so called help him
prepare the foods for the BBQ. lols. anw i didnt do much.
cos i dont know wad to help =X den later in the afternoon
rongxin came to his hse and meet me den follow by Huiteng.
den we dolled up and stuff and it was arnd 4pm so
okay we cabbed down to town. WE HAD A HARD TIME SEARCHING
FOR A PRESENT!!! omg GUYS PRESENTS are sucha headache!
saw alot of west spring students there and den yups JIAOJIAN! lols.
we spent few hrs just lookin for a present. well den finally teng and RX
decided to buy a billabong wallet for him and i got him a set of cloths.
BEE I HOPE YOU LIKE IT yups...=]
den cabbed down to pasir panjang his ah ma hse for the BBQ.
he intro some of his aunties and uncles to me. =X well i was damn shy lah.
lols. okay anw they are really friendly people. sucha big family.
so lots of his frens and bro came not forgettin his EXs la.
had fun there. his frens starts leaving at arnd 12 and by then He was
already damn drunk! and he vomited! gawd it was disgausting but
still have to stand beside him =X he insisted on goin home so his sis
asked me to send him home first so we pack his presents and cabbed
home first. imaging i gotta pull him all the way back ! hais. teng and rx
stay over at his hse too. yups we had a wonderful day though there
were moments when my heart hurts. not gonna mention it here.
12/2/06 [HIS BIRTHDAY]
<3 BEE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! MUACKS!!! <3
i waked up damn ealry 6am lolss. so i waked him up also and i was shispering
to him so he decided to open the presents and and with the noise tt we made
teng and rx wakep up too. He received so many shirts for present and one of
his frien even gave him a set of sexual intercourse thingy . the condoms and
sex toys and stuff. lols damn funny sia. so we went back to sleep again at arnd 7.15
all the way till 11 plus and i waked them up ! lols.
called for macdonal delivery ! =]. watch a bit of tv and yups time flies.
we cabbed to causeway and den he told me he go buy things and left me
teng rx at the ebase shop/ when he came back i was lk so damn SHOCK!
he bought a bouguet of rose with a bear tie around it. OMG i was speechless.
was too happy to say anything. i hug the roses tightly. and took pics .=]
I finally realised how it feels when u carry a bouguet of flowers with so many
people givin you tt kinda look ' oh i'm so envy of her.' lols. i know i'm buey ba.
but heck tts how i feel!!! i just so love tt kinda feeling! FOR A MOMENT I
FEEL SO PROUD! =]
THANK YOU SO MUCH !
Thats how i spent my weekend.
MEANINGFUL*
=)
i'll post again when there is sth special happenin.
till then cyas and hope u guys have a wonderful days
ahead. =] takecare!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:48 PM;__
